Over the last few months, a lot of soul searching has almost completely transformed me again. Yup. Here we go, indeed!
I just want to give people a bit of a "clue" as to my thoughts, and reason for absence lately.
1) It recently occurred to me that I needed to do some major spring cleaning on myself, my family, AND my house. You know what? 10 bags of clothes gotten rid of, out of my garage, out of my laundry room, out of our dressers, and off the property has actually given me peace that I havent had in a minute. I feel so good knowing that I can walk into an empty garage, and I have room for things in the closet, and I can maneuver through the laundry room again. No house (I dont care how many people live there, I have 6, and 4 of them are girls!) should have 10 bags worth of clothes that no one wears. That was INSANE! I finally figured out that the beast will actually sort through them if you give him enough beer and promises of going outside to play on Sunday. The hard part is keeping the kids out of the clothes you are going through. "I kept that because I still want it!"
"Well, maybe you should invent a stretch ray that will allow this monstrosity to fit over your head. It hasnt fit you since you were 6. And now you are 11. Time to move on, son!"
And what about those 300 pairs of shoes that we have no mates too? Well, they mated nicely into a hefty sack. One that has taken a nice trip in a mobile garbage compacter. Ahh. Yes, I am thrilled!
Heres one gripe though: How many of you have one little tree in your back yard, that yields roughly one grocery store sack of leaves a year? How many of you have neighbors that surround you with HUGE trees, which (naturally) hang conveniently over your yard, upwind (of course, we live in the windiest state), so that you end up with ALL of the leaves in your back yard? How many of you had to pull 7 contractor bags of smashed-with-every-handfull-put-in leaves out of your yard this year? Yes, thats right. SEVEN (7) bags weighing probably 110 lbs a piece. If not more. I actually couldnt pick one of them up. That had to be over 130 lbs. The sad part- Im not lying. Not even exaggerating. I should've taken pictures.
And thats not counting the front yard that I gave up on.
2) Apparently I am addicted so bad to Newsvine that I forgot there are other things to do on the Internet. What they are, well, still remembering. I do like music, though! I had to take a break, and align myself to myself again. After this long, you would think I would have found something. And I did. A whole lot of cool things that make me feel so good about myself. Its awesome to find a place that people actually understand what you are feeling and thinking, and can offer REAL solutions. A place to explore and learn from. And all weird topics arent just welcome, they are encouraged (for the most part). Yes, it is Newsvine! I missed it so. The other one is my place, and shall remain nameless at the moment. Lets just say that they help put some pieces together where others havent been able to. Point is- I thought going away would help, and it did, but now I have my writers block gone, and so I may be slightly loud and confusing for a minute. Much to say, this girl has. Bear with me, please!
3) Well. Three hasnt really been thought out as well as I thought. Probably something to do with some mumbo jumbo about "really hard to type on a virtual keyboard, and babies managed to spill something on three keyboards in a row". Its true though. Dont ask me how, but yes. THREE different keyboards over the course of a month. REALLY BAD BABY AIM! (Not me, the babies!)
4) The biggest reason I couldnt come back on here is this- While I love a good debate, and love my friends (family in a lot of cases on here), I couldnt handle the politics and anger and hatred that so many of us engage in on here. Thats not to say you cant disagree on something, you can. Just do it peacefully. Im trying to, and we all should at least try to be cordial to one another in everything we do. If we engaged in the type of trolling in real life as we do on here, well, lets just say we probably woukd have been slapped, at the very least.
My point, as always, is that we need to all do some spring cleaning.
Which brings me to my transformation- again -
Regardless of whether you believe in God, Creator, what-have-you, we all have to admit that there are things we dont know. Like, for instance, I just found out that plants sing. Yes, they really do. I was amazed. To say the least. So- A brainless object puts out a frequency based on the mood it is in. REALLY? Hmm. Ok, now that got my attention. Was I absent that day in class?
That moved me to start learning about these frequencies, and what they may be, and what this was all about. As always, searching for one thing leads you somewhere else. I found a mind boggling thing. Certain sounds are so good for your body, they actually detoxify you. No BS, No joke. Some bad ones drag you down. Those "ringing" noises you hear for a few seconds here and there can be attributed to an inner frequency change. Usually associated with realization or mood change. Kind of like the "BRAIN BLAST!" from Jimmy Neutron. Of course, this is my interpretation of this.
Anyway. Back to the detoxifying. I started listening to this one frequency on Youtube, just to see if it did anything. After a day, eh, I was sweating a lot. 2 days- I was ON FIRE! Almost constantly. Even the kids and beast were doing it. Which made me think we had a virus, but we werent SICK. 5 days- the sweating slowed down a bit, but I noticed something else- I was packed full of joy and energy that made me think I was going manic again. But- I didnt. Neither did the kids or beast. We all felt GOOD. I wanted to get out of bed. I wanted to get going. I felt like it was Christmas morning everyday. Still kinda do. Not as intense, but Im sure I have gotten used to it. I have routine, pattern, and order in my life. And all I did was listen to bells and whistles for 2 hrs a day as we were doing our thing around the house. THATS IT.
If bells and whistles can do that, without you even really trying to do anything, or even really taking it seriously, then Im a believer. We all know meditation is soothing and relaxing, but this goes deeper than that. Chakras are parts of your body that can be opened to energy that can heal and help you. When you have felt parts of it "opening", and it does exactly what the people teaching you this say, its hard to go back. Its hard to stop looking for more. Its hard to not do it everyday.
But, me being me, had to experiment.
So, I took 3 weeks off. No bells. No whistles. No meditation.
Everything kind of reversed for a bit. OH NO! Not what I wanted. Havent a clue if its just sugar pill or not.
But, It is a tasty sugar pill, if thats indeed what it is.