Hello Everyone! It has been a minute, and time to BLOW YOUR MINDS!
Ready... Set... Go!!
1) There really are people who need help= ME! Im going crazy here inside my little lonely mind. Ask Queenie, she will tell you. I have no friends, except you guys on here, as all seemed to turn into real major pains and dirty words sometime in the last 3 months. I guess people dont like the new Wowed. Or Krista in real life. Oops. I didnt tell you that one yet. Here goes. I have completely changed the way I look at everything and everyone lately. I have decided that I want to help everyone, and want to have true peace. We all know I was already going for this, but now I really GET IT. So, I have been trying to give everyone a piece of mind to try and do the same for others. Also with that, however, is realizing your own mistakes, and forgiving yourself before you expect others to. Step one is the hardest. Forgiving yourself for being human. I have done that. Mostly, anyway. Now, I seek forgiveness from others, and part of that is dealing with the backlashes that come from that. Cool. Done. I can handle people telling me what I have done to them now, whereas I had too thin of skin a while back.
You know what I cant handle? People who know me getting mad at me because of their own issues. Yes, I want to help people. No, I will not be your whipping boy (or girl, in this case). Yes, I will help with whatever I possibly can. No, I will not do it and then have you treat me like I have never done anything but be a burden to you. Sorry. I do have respect for myself, as well. I actually have respect enough for anyone to tell them the truth on that one. I think thats why people dont hang out anymore. I calls em as I sees em, and thats tough on people. Be prepared for a very honestly honest version. No more sugar coating. Most on here are used to that, but in RL I am usually the one that will walk off because I dont want to keep arguing with people about crap that wont change. I get tired of hearing "well, I do this because you do that." GROW UP! Im trying to. So can you! You are the reason for everything you do. Its that simple. Take personal responsibility for the state of affairs in your life.
That said, I do need help. I am seriously bored and tired of looking at kids and house and thats it all day. Going nuts. Sorry, guys. Deal with it for a bit please. I cant look inside anymore for a minute. It gets spooky knowing yourself so well, trust me.
2) Well, I figured out that going to work for 3 months, and leaving a male in charge of the house, no matter how "clean" he has claimed to be for the entire course of your relationship, is REALLY not a good idea (unless you are one of the few that can manage 4 kids, house, life, and summer vacation (<--------LMAO!!)). Trust me when I say it, they need to be outside, there is nothing good that can come of a roughneck and boredom INDOORS! NOTHING! I came home from work one day to find my kitchen-aid mixer tie-dyed, covered in sugar (I think), and in little pieces because "She got too close and her hair got stuck." Not kidding. That was the oldest. The hair made it, though. She was the only girl besides me that had hair by the end of the summer. The babies gave themselves hair cuts. It would have looked good if we were going for the hobo-baby look, but since we weren't, it had to go. Yup, that was on Dads watch, too. I wont even go to the "yeah, I got some dishwasher detergent (note to self- we have dishSOAP, it works just as well!!!)". Yeah, it WAS that bad. Im terrified of green Dawn now. T.E.R.R.I.F.I.E.D.
3) After 2.5 months back home, and him back at work, "normal" still hasnt returned. Nope. My laundry still isnt caught up (you're kidding, right?). He BROKE the dryer trying to change the heating element. So, instead of asking me (Ive had that dryer forever, changed the element once already) to help, he gets his friend that has no clue about appliances to help him. Yeah. It was a decent shaped dryer, with the exception of the top being a bit smashed because it was my stool while painting once. Now, well, its uneven all over, the door falls off when I open it, the screws wont screw back in to anything because nothing matches, and its almost diamond shaped (if thats possible). Seriously. Theres that huge diamond I wanted, eh, ladies! ;) It at least works again since I fixed it. I still gotta fix that sink from the wet bar, that for some stupid reason he decided needed to be turned on, when no one but kids even hangs out in the living room for any period of time. Yeah, he does have ADHD, thanks for asking. My garage has boxes that "couldnt" be broken down and placed in the trash can. Or the broken bed that he "couldnt figure out" how to fix. The one that needs the particle board SCREWED into the bed because the boards broke two years ago. If he wasnt around, I'd be crazy. I love his beasty pain-ness. Yes, that is my new word!
4) I have discovered meditation again, and I feel GOOD! REALLY GOOD! And no, this isnt manic wowed saying that. I really do feel good! I just listen to some good frequencies (I have a list of great ones if anyone is interested), and then at night I sleep like a baby. Wake up refreshed after a few hours. No, kink, before you ask. :) I think that I am going to push my own agenda on here, a bit. A good one, though. Dont be scared! I really do work for peace. I promise.
5)Just had to have a 5 that says this: